The Truth

I live in my own hell
I have some how between my past and negative thoughts my mind has become my own enemy
Even with evidence I still fall short of believing anything
Its instilled in me to ruin everything even my damn self
Everything I think of fuels me especially when it comes to you
I get very angry and possessive I feel death will fall upon me if someone else were to have you
But I cant control these negatives thoughts about you and others doing things that are not acceptable when your committed to someone
Jealousy runs through my blood stream I need you to only want me I crave you
Ill do some ridiculous things to keep you
Hell burns me each time I think this way
its unhealthy I cant stay here anymore…..