Well I woke up this morning, and looked around my home. Yeah I am alive thank you God, yes I have a roof over my head thank you for that as well, No the food in my refrigerator I do not want but it`s there so I am thankful for that as well.

But….

Why can`t I be thankful and be unhappy that I am broke, anytime somebody is mad about not having money. People always say well be thankful for what you have, you are thankful but who the fuck wants to be broke at any point of time? I don`t see anyone jumping for joy because they woke up broke. Life should not just consist of paying bills, and getting by especially not for me. This shit is for the birds, I am definitely going to be wealthy in my near future. I can not exist like this, not having anything for days in and out. Can`t even buy a damn snack from the corner store, this frustrates me mostly because I have tried so hard in the past to get ahead and not be broke. I have tried so hard to better my future. When is it my time to relax and enjoy life`s greater options it has to offer?

Just ranting here, but whatever I will go donate plasma again tomorrow. I get food stamps Friday and who knows what`s coming after that?….. I guess God does…..