Rarely every do I never think about you, I just wish things would have been different. Back then we were both in situations we dared not to leave, now that we can freely be together. We just rather not. Even with the memories of that hot steamy sex we always had, both of us have lost the desire. I believe it was the thrill, it gave us the excitement we needed, the rush of being caught. If only they knew back then….. I still haven​t confessed, I don`t think I ever will. I have a lot things that I will be taking to the grave, somethings just are not worth spilling beans for. You definitely would not be my first, I have had many on different occasions. Different relationships of course. I can not be alone, but I can not be with just one person either. Maybe there is something wrong with me, I need whatever I am not getting from one person to be fulfilled by another. Call me selfish oh well I am human, it is my life.

Everybody has secrets, you are definitely one of my best kept ones.