The truth

I live in my own hell
i have some how between my past and negative thoughts my mind has become my own enemy
Even with evidence i still fall short of believing anything
Its instilled in me to ruining everything even my damn self
Everything i think of fuels me especially when it comes to you
I get very angry and possessive i feel death will fall upon me if someone else were to have you
But i cant control these negatives thoughts about you and others doing things that arent acceptable when your committed to someone
Jealousy runs through my blood stream i need you to only want me i crave you
Ill do some ridiculous things to keep you
Hell burns me each time i think this way
its unhealthy im close to giving in im tired of trying