Takes time

It takes time. One day at a time. The time maybe the hardest part. Something on my back is pushing me. I am trying to take things as they come. Certain thoughts send me over board. Just thoughts…

I have been apart of my own negativity. How do you separate a part of yourself? The part of me that has protected me. Because that is the only mechanism, I knew how to use. It’s like saying goodbye again, to a person. Abandoning myself.

I need to. I have to! The negativity is no good. The thought of why, who,what, where should not move me. I wish to turn into stone. Not to be moved by others or myself. Let it all roll off like water on a duck.

I am trying to write this side of me off. Don’t expect me to ignore things. My silence will fill rooms. Because I will no longer moved.