Here Still….

I apologize that you are easier to love. My shell has become resistant. I am difficult to love. But you do love me. If being perfect were possible, I ‘d be perfect for you. We know I am a mess. Your eyes make me feel like I am being tested. Often they show disappointment. Then I feel like I am failing. Which scares me, I get consumed inside possibility thoughts. I am apologizing for hurting you. Remember, you have hurt me too. We are both still here.