This morning…

I am so mad this morning how do you wake up with an attitude? Like Seriously because you were mad about a light that left on last night?…

I really do love my man or whatever he is to me at this point but I swear I can never be the female he is the ring leader of that. Am I not the one that is supposed to leave when you make me mad? Or kick you on to the couch? No I can not do any of that because you do it for me, I thought females pack their shit and leave on spur of anger. But no you do that too.

You love me or supposedly you do, when you get mad you take everything in the house you feel entitled too. In front of my child, cursing pushing me, and oh today you burst my lip. I guess that is my fault as well I control your anger and actions huh?

As were all those time you choked me too, the marks still remain where your nails dug in to my skin! I have scratch marks on my chest, why are we arguing again? Oh, over something petty right… The light was left on!

The lights hurt your eyes, its too cold or too hot, I made the meal wrong lord Jesus what do I do right for this guy? It seems nothing, you always express how you are so in love with me one moment. Then the next you are, doing the worse to me. You have no clue how anything makes me feel, why is that?

Because my feelings get dismissed, only you and your words matter cause your`re older and smarter right? I swear in my mind I really get fed up with you, you are lucky my heart still yearns for you. I still see a vision to work things out. Nobody understand why, everyone thinks I am insane for being with you as long as I have been.

When the day another man steps in and shows me better, you will feel it trust you are going know how it feels to lose me another time again. This time will be worse on the count of somebody will have my heart.