Free writing

I see the future but I also vision pain
nothings perfect between us we go through all the emotions and back again
we read everything so opposite
But we’re still writing on the same page
Sometimes I just feel your gonna quit on me
or as if theres a transparent person some where else
Idk you keep everything so secretive

Just free writing….

Memories of you and me I never thought this was meant to be
This just seems so bizarre I never want it to stop in this era with you I feel everything I am missing along with everything I need dont allow the wrong things to come in between and stop this thing between you and I
It feels good it feels like magic it feels like the best thing ive encountered in this life i live
Nobody has been so real you keep it 100 for real
People on the outside are always looking in judging us expressig there feelings speaking the end of us in to the future the bad never out ways the good its none of their business we now know just to keep this going between us….
At times you cant handle me and I cant handle you we really fuel up a war that we beat eachother out of each time is it good? I dont know….
But I woudnt bare this bullshit with anyone else I´ll probably never walk away you already know I am not the one for the bullshit every action between the two of us causes a bigger reaction we control all the factors dont do me wrong and I wont do you…..

Not the one

Everybody has expectations that they hold you up to but why?

Are you not allowed to create your own expectations of yourself?

When you do they get mad at you for it? trust me I know. But that is just another way of saying I do not except who you are because you do not live the way I expect you to.

Well then I guess I should never talk to you, because I am going to be myself, I am going to be who I expect myself to be and not you….

I am definitely following my own mind and my own dreams I would say thank you for your support but that is bullshit because you never were supporting me and I what I wanted just the things you felt were right for me to do….

Well it is over now nomore I say, I am happy with myself sorry I feel for you though you can not live your life trying to control everyone to be what expect….

Done

So we feel these type of ways but yet we still think we can work things out…… But you left remember and refusing to come home…. So what am I to do sit here and wait on you? You want me to make you feel special so you can come back home…. Not gonna happen I am really at my wits end either you come back home or you don’t at all I refuse to drop a tear or feel any anger I am just going to move on I have to live for my daughter even if I don’t want to live for myself….. Seems like you have made your choice and now we really are going seperate ways….